-=Low point in life shows th0se wh0 are worthy=-

Feeling all alone & upset now,e one i thought i cld trust wasn't there. Screaming n hurling insults tt I felt tt everything in life was easy. WOW, i cldnt believe my ears...I'm more em0 now due to certain reasons & i suddenly felt alone. In this world there's no1 to fend 4 u except urself even though u might b in ur weakess. A holiday tt isnt wat it turned out to be & a marriage tt isnt e way it shld be.

I've lost the touch tt i used to get from my love. It seems tt e love is gone or lost somewhere, like i said the most wonder thing in life cannot b seem it must be felt in e heart. Having all e money in e world or drivng a very posh car doesnt make one happy, its the happiness tt one gets from the other. I used to think tt if i m ever in need or trouble he'll always be there but i was proven wrong, imagine having to ask to be more cared for @ my weakess. Worthless begger it seems, hw i miss my mum now & she wld be here to wipe my tears away frm me. She'll not scream & hurl @ me in e state i am in currently.

Have 4gotten Why i g0t married in e 1st place, where is e love? But since e fact is tt i am married, i shall bear with it for this life n be that worthless person. I hope my fake smiles can last for this whole marriage, life is meaningless now & there's definately nothing to look forward to. I'll learn to take the money & fake the smiles, its only here that i can show my true feelings now & maybe to my true friend.

Christmas will be a sad one from now onwards. MY Life, its e end. Regretting is too late now. hope god takes me away soon.

-=Seoul in 2 m0re days=-

Its freezing cold in tokyo and I'll be heading to Seoul in 2 more days. MuM says tt e temp is -4degrees!!Arghhh, i'm having a cold feet thinking of it alrdy but its g0nna be a white christmas there!! So cool, but love is not able to join in. Hopefully, it'll really be like a shopping heaven there..i need to get more accessories for my wedding and mask to keep my looking radiant hehe.
Hopefully, love will miss me tons when I'm in Seoul shopping =) I'll be much happier after this Shopping spree trip i guess, i've not been able to get anything tt i like here in Tokyo & its damn irritaing, i wanna go shopping & end up with shopping bags!!
Looking 4ward to the meet ups withs uni,pri,poly and sec sch friends in Dec...christmas spirit gets all of us t0gether,hw i love it!! I wonder what i'm g0nna get for my christmas present, its seems tt there's n0thing in my list now except for the arrival of the new car =) i want more holidays. I want to go to new caledonia!!

-=Back in Japan=-

Back in Japan for the last time this yr or probably the 2nd last time alrdy. Too much of anything is not very good, thinking of having Ramen now turns me a lil off haha..even when i was bk @ SG for my exams i kept far far away frm any Jap related f0od!!!

This will be probably be 1 of e most fulfilling trips as i'll be travelling to Hokkiad0, Osaka, kobe..etc and Seoul with my sec sch friends as well. I'm kinda of excited abt it alrdy, love n my lil trip will start early tml. It'll be said tt i'm too proud if i say i'm say tt I'm sick of taking planes, but its really kinda tiring (o.O) Hopefully its not too c0lddddddd n freezing in Hokkiadooo *fingers crossed*

After all the holiday it'll be a busy busy period for me, we've decided to hold our wedding dinner in Jan. Heheheehe....to be continued.