-=See no evil, hear no evil, feel no evil=-

Today is a huge turning point in my life. I've learnt that I can only count on myself, I must stay strong & sane. I've been acting alil insane I think, I'm going to enjoy my life & not to be so sensative on things or rather just let things go with e flow. I've learnt tt expectations can be harmful,or lets say expectations from pple. I'll just set expectations 4 myself nw. My goal now is to get bk to my weight be4 preg. That's my goal & i expect myself to loss about 10kg in 2months. There after I'm going to get a job and enjoy some time with the babes. I really miss e good old times with them. There were lesser worries, at least much lesser than now.
I maybe stubborn but peopla around me are not much better. Setting my piorities right, I'll try not to be envious of th0se loving couples. I'll dream about being in one loving marriage tonight & every other night since reality isnt tis way.
Secrets will be kept deep within myself for now, lessons learnt everyday.
I have to stay strong, DO NOT RELY ON ANYONE.

-=Unappericated=-

I'm pissed off, bored & overweight. I've been stuck @ hm since June, i'm bored. I've been wanting to go on a holiday but I keep thinking that the money shld be spent on e baby instead. Now i really want to go on a holiday!! I've not even g0ne f0r my honeymoon & my husband doesn't even b0ther. All he cares about is hving to save the money for the baby. Come on, I didnt give birth 2 my boy to end up this way, having n0thing for myself.
I'm pissed off that he spends so much time on the psp that he doesnt even bother planning for our 1st year anni. It seems like nothing to him, it doesnt matter, all these dates doesnt matter. 1st it was bad planning for my birthday and now, no planning for our wedding anni. I've to keep asking n searching around for somewhere to go or something special to do,wtf i'm sick of doing it everytime. This is just e 1st yr of our marriage, I wonder hw e rest of e years will be like. If he's going to continue this way, I'm not gonna bother either. It feels as if I've wasted my life & i've lots of regrets. Is this my marriage or our marriage? Whats marriage? To me now it just means routine and been unappericated.

-=M0r0ns=-

TGIF. Mr Teo will be back from Shanghai t0day. It'll be midnight by then. He could be much earlier but some freaking Cols just cant get their act t0gether properly causing him to miss the earlier flight & nearly missing the one he is on now.

I'm disappointed in the way tis Co. do their things, they are no where near the previous Co. Well, s0metimes changes might not be positive. Lets hope things get better if not i'll hope a new n better opp will appear soon *finger's cross*

Lil Raph is getting more n more aborable as the days go by. He loves it when pple talks to him, his smile is priceless. When our country cel her b'day, he'll be 2months old =)

-=25 ALREADY=-

I'm offically 25. Wow, it feels weird tt I'm so old n its scary hw time flies when we hit e 20's. I cant think of e 30's or more. I'm glad tt i've still gt several gd friends @ tis age, hopefully they wun be too caught up with their 0wn family in future .

I was kinda disappointed with Mr Teo for my b'day, i felt tt it wasn't planned properly & stuff. He managed 2 savage it with a lil surprise luckily n the b'day gift was really costly. I'm looking forward to our 1yr wedding anni in e nx month, hopefully he'll give me a wonderful surprise.
Time to go now.