-=Fighting the inner self=-

Done with BKK & currently lazing around in a lil corner of Tokyo.

BKK was alright but its a waste tt i didnt get to go to the few places as planned. Nvm. Its great tt I sent time with Love. The longings to see him has been satisfied. He's been really sweet to acc me to BKK amidst his busy schedule, its a really heartfelt action. 

E flight to Tokyo wasn't tt pleasant, my heart nearly pop outta my mouth =x Was tt a bad omen?? Familiar with e streets on e way back but the feeling is diff this time around. I felt scared & unsure, suddenly having cold feet. My mind has been flooded again with images & thoughts tt aint pleasant. Being drained drastically the day before didnt help & i didnt wanna make any fuss anymore. 17days till i make my way bk hm. Its really g0nna be a test for me? or maybe us..ermmMm..i guess its just me. When everything in e world seems right, its just our own mind & heart we have to concur. Life? Its still nv fair. I guess it'll nv be, acting Dumb doesn't help or rather things will be worst somehow. Mum says I am dumb sometimes, i think i have to agree with her sometimessss...going back to dreamland now. Hopefully my memories will all be erased. 

ciao

-=Reap what you s0w=-

Done with the AMCA Paper but it seems that my mood aint getting any better.
Irritation. I HATE it when pple raise their voice when talking to me for no apparent reason, it just gives me e urge to slam d0wn the phone. Friends, do u trust ur friends 100% ? Well, i used to & was disappointed. There are so many disappointments in life. Or rather its just in my life?
But there are still Angels around. A friend told me this; The bad things in life often open ur eyes to the gd ones. Issit?

What do u get packing ur room neatly & trying to clean up the house for a visitor, when u've a bad running nose? Some comfort, a tissue? Ha, in my dreams perhaps. No more, i shall just leave things as it is in future. The exams are over, i hope everything else will be too. I'm drained. Can't be b0thered abt anything alrdy. The rainy weather goes hand in hand with the situations i'm facing to dampen my mood totally. Cheers.

-=Eve of My AMCA Paper=-

*phew*
I'm almost done with my revision. My shoulders & my neck is aching like mad, i guess its my sitting posture. I demand for a massage. I can't wait to be done with the paper tml, it marks the start of my Holidays!!! It also means tt I'll be able to kick my br0wn c0w's butt for real. *Grins*

Ahhhh, can't wait!!!

-=What Type of Men Will I Marry=-

Took this quiz from facebo0k.
I'm pretty happy with the result, hopefully it is the truth. Below is the result.

THE BEST FRIEND
He knows you better than anyone. He knows what you are going to say before you say it. You will have fun together no matter what you are doing and it will never get dull. Although being very much a man he will also be right by your side getting a pedicure or in the dressing room letting you know what he thinks of the dress you are trying on. He will be your rock and he will never stray. You will have a best friend through life and love.

The sad part is tt i d0n't attract the gd type of guys & its due to my confidence. WTH.
Below is the result of the type of guy i attract.

THE PLAYER
Don't hate the player, hate the game! You exude confidence and know how to hold yourself. This may intimidate other men, but not these types of boys. He is a huge flirt, and a bit cocky, but you liked that he knew what he wanted, and that he wanted you. You like to have a good time and are very adventurous in all aspects of life, but you really just want a good guy to be with. He isn't going to change his ways.

Wow, its actually pretty true when i come to think of it. Tskk..tskkk..
But its alright now. Now I have Love. I think.

-=Letsss.....c..Countttt..DOWN=-

Before I call it a night, I just want to shout...aHHHH!!! 8 moreee DAYS :)
Missed Love.

-=Give Thanks with a Grateful Heart=-

Thank God for giving me a wonderful family. A rather Stubborn(tts where I gt my temper frm) bt lovely mum, a protective n charming elder bro who is ever rdy 2 crack a joke 4 me & a dad who's causing me 2 hv vitamin C overdose with e amt of fruits he's stuffing me with everyday.
I'm stronger than I though I'm. Maybe its cOz of e trials tt God has put me through, sometimes I blame God 4 putting me through these. Since I was little, mum taught me e lessOns in life. I help any1 I see in need, my helping hand & listening ear is always on stand by. While jogging, i alrdy help several elderly with their baggages. Hence, when unfortunate events occur I wonder wats wrong with myself, Cld I've d0ne better? Slowly & surly, i realize many things are not within my control.
The g00d always die young, if this ever happens to me, i hope pple will not be too upset c0z i'll be in heaven with g0d. No more sufferings on earth anymore. But for now tt i'm still here, i'll hv a fulfilling life c0z e bad things in life did open my eyes to the good ones. Blessing in disguise pple call it, i don't blame g0d for e trials he put me through or i'll be going through anymore c0z I am bl00ming int0 a strong & fine young lady.

-=3.5 Popcorns=-

Watched e Movie(Taken) above e day before & I'll recommend it to my friends who are thinking of catching a movie. This thriller gives you a run for ur money, displaying a father's luv for his daughter, accompanied by all the fighting scene but i only gave it 3.5popcorns c0z e ending was pretty predictable. The Good always Wins, a Happy Ending as usual.

My progress on e revision is rather slow but slow is better than nothing right?? Will pull up my socks right after this post =x
Justin Timbrelake's 'Sexyback' playing on my itunes currently. A thought struck me while taking a break from my notes a moment ag0.
Questions suddenly surfaced, to clarify them or not to? Doing so might lead to another string of bickering. Sighs. Humans shld evolve into an advance creature whereby we can actually mind read, understand each 0ther's course of actions w/0 hving to ask. Isn't tt better? Most pple misunderstand each 0ther as they fail to recognize & digest why pple behave in a certain manner, thats when we let our imaginations run wild & things start to fall apart.
The worst happens when things are being clarified but explanations ain't clear & simply brushed off. This usually occurs in fresh r/s when couples ain't used to their partner's behaviors. R/s are fragile, esp. @ e start when the foundations are being built, it works similarly to the construction of any building. Contractors need to be honest, using real materials & putting in tons of sweat. This forms the mutual trust & long-term r/s with clients, same with any r/S. Nothing comes for free. Slip-short work is only used for Hit & Runs, short-term g0als which ends up nowhere after a few tries.
Wahhh..So much thoughts, drained. Dinner Time

-=Let no History repeat itself=-

I've deleted most of my past entries. It good not to dwell on the past & lo0k 4ward to wat lies ahead of us. What a headache!
Its time to get on with my revision, exactly 2More weeks be4 the AMCA paper. Lazing around & not having the mo0d to touch the notes..tskk..tskk this is really bad. I will start my revision. . . tml =)

-=Happy 11th B'day Aldren=-

Happy 11th b'day to my little cousin though he's not tt little..ermMm in size i meant =P The y0ungest among e cousins. Simple dinner @ grannys' with cousins & 2 b'day cakes for the b'day b0y. Gave the b'day b0y a Chelsea T-shirt, hope he likes it.(Photo of my closest cousin & i)

I'm really lo0king 4wArd to the end of thiS m0ntH. I'll be d0ne with my 1 & only paper on e 27tH & I'll be off t0 Bkk on the 29th & probably to s0mewhEre elsE in May. Hopefully n0thing g0es wrong with these plans, will be super devastated. Lo0king 4ward to al0t 0f thiNgs currently. Sometimes when we set g0als too hiGh & when we're to about to reach these g0als,things suddenly fumble..leaving Us all t0rned. So shld we still gO all e way t0 reach our g0als?? Yes, we only live once.

Tskk tskk..missing some1 is such a tough j0b *Sobs* Mood Swing kicks in @ times. Better concentrate on my exam readings for now, so little c0w better be go0d =P

-=A Stolen Heart=-

This entry is specially dedicated to my little cute br0wn c0w. Why? Just wanna put aside s0metiMe t0 ann0unce to the w0rld tt I'm Heartless, c0z he has stolen my heart..the wh0le of it. Every0ne has been aSking t0 see him..please lo0k bel0w =P
That's my Love.
Love his Smile, Love the way he lo0ks @ me, Love the way he tease mE, Love the way he fuss 0ver me, L0ve his sn0res, Loves his dimples, Loves his c0oking..i think if i c0ntinue listing d0wn every single thing i l0ve abt him, we'll be here till tml. I JUST LOVE EVERYTHING ABT HIM Esp. the way he L0ves Me.
Love c0mes very unexpectedly. I totally agree with it. Our Love didnt c0me easy & i least expected it to happen to us, 2yrs flew past but in the end G0d still br0ught us t0gether.
Thank G0d : )
It came unexpectedly just like hw i didn't expect to see the Cherry Blossom ab0ve.
I pr0mise t0 treasure us. I'm lo0king 4ward to spending a life tiMe t0gether..t0 stiCk 2gether always. Love.

-=tHe Unb0rn=-

I caught the movie 'Unborn' tis evening, unfortunately its not as scary as it seems..i Still wanna catch 'Coming So0n', anyone keen?? I'll only give it 2.5 Stars?? Watch it on a week day if u really hv to =X
I got myself a new toy, finally the RX8 transformer tt i've been lo0king for ages!! I wanted it in White but it only comes in Red, Dark Blue & Silver so i settled for the silver one..
hMmM, after getting bk frm Tokyo..I feel like I'm in a daze..seems pretty restlesS!!tSkk tskk, I will start revision nx week & try not to go out so often. I miss Love, wondering if he feels the same way t0o. I feel uneasy, coZ i feel vulnerable & i feel i'm getting Sticky =( I dont wanna be a pest & be to reliant. scared. very scared. Its been a long long time since i've felt this way. Good or Bad? I really dunn0e...hmmm..

-=Footprints in Tokyo=-

I'm back..back from Tokyo. Wonderful Tokyo? Well, I can't say tt..c0z e History less0ns in sec. sch still lingers in my mind. But quality time was spent with Love over there. . .& memories shared tt only b0th of us will embrace.

DisneyLand was fun but the ques are horrifying, wish there was m0re tiMe to finish the whole area. Still managed to tk a photo with Donald Duck th0ugh =) Shopping in Shibuya, Harajuku, Shinjuku & Ginza was fun. Much damage was done to love's pockets =X c0z of my Burberry's craze. Food was yumMy, did i mention before tt i find tt the only positive point of Jap is their fo0d??everywhere seems pretty clean & pple were polite. Most pple travel by train which they cld eat,drink & smoke in..drunkards & stench of alcohol lingers in the train every evening. What a Culture!!

On a positive n0te, I managed to catch the start of cherry Blossoms though not the full blossom..Still lucky la..haha. Maybe I'll be there nx yr to busk in the full blossoms =) Life is full of surprises, I'm happily digesting the greatness of it. There is a sliver lining behind every dark cloud definitely. 0verall, I enjoyed my time there so much with love, wish the clock cld stop or go just alil slower f0r just a lil while. Life is incomplete now, not when we're apart. I dunn0e what the future h0lds for us, but dear Lord pls guide us through all e trials & temptations.
Amen.

-=GoodBye McGraw-Hill Education=-

Currently in the office & feelinG rather EMO. How Time Flies, blink of an eye & 4months is g0ne. Today is sort of like the last day of my stay @ McGraw-Hill Education & I'm definately g0nna miss this place...n0t c0z of the unbearable air-con but e w0nderful Cols & friendships I've made here. After working at several places & diff types of jobs, i conclude tt tis is the best so far!!
Yes, its is pretty far inside TUAS but everything else makes up for it. I wonder if I can ever find such a wonderful BIG family to work with. Everyone smiles & talks to everyone here, yeshh..it gets pretty busy & i fall ill & get paper cuts once in awhile but i love this Co. , perhalps I shall try my luck to see if there's a full-time position available upon my graduation. Even if my pay issn't that fantastic @ first I wun mind working here,errrmm..my Brown Cow wun mind me getting an average pay @ 1st right, and can support me right? LOL

-=Actions Speaks Louder than WordS=-

Before I slp, I shall do the bunch of beautiful R0ses some justice.
Received the 1st bunch of Red & pink r0ses during CNY, Was so surprised & happy c0z its the 1st time s0me0ne sent me so many r0ses..and then..
Few days back, tadaaaaaa...the delivery man sent 99 BLUE r0sesss t0 my do0rstep!!Boy was i sh0cked. Very impressive, thanks Br0wn C0w..i Feel so spoilt now. . . i was afraid tt you were all talk & no actions but there..u always prove me wrong. Thanks for everything mo0mo0. I will treasure our fate. Currently Counting d0wn to leave on the Jet plane =) 2 weekssss moreee..

*yawn*
Missy

-=Topsy Turvy=-

Happy Belated V-day to all. Hw was e cel?Hope it went well :) I enjoyed my little cel. My little life has been topsy Turvy with e things tts happening & i've Nv thought tt i'll b goin to Jap, definitely e last holiday destination since I laid hands on my hiSt txtbkS. Bt I gueSs things often occur when leAst expEct them to.
I'm loOkin 4ward 2 e end of 4months attachment..alil break b4 my laSt seM!hw timE flies tt i'll b officially stepping into Wrking life @ e start of nx yr :x butterflies in my tuMmy thinking of it all. I can't wait 2 start wrk n get my hands on e rx8 & of coz the SC430 in the long run. =)

Goodnight for now =) Looking forward to tml.

-=happy CNY'09=-

9th of fEb marks e laSt dAy of Cny. Time to coUnt the hoNgbaO tt I collected this yr,my yr e yr of e Ox. Had a gd steaMboat dinner witH faMily & finally jog after 1month. My stamina dropped significantly :(

It seems tt CNY is a lovely tiMe if U guys get wat I mean :p Things hv been going on well..keeping my fingers crosSed tt things wiLL b sMooth this yr 4 all my lOved ones.

Will pOst the photos online soon :)

-=Winter in S'PORE=-

*yAwns* what a tiring day i had!! I fell aslp within 30s after reaching hm today. Was supposed to be out & about but turned everything d0wn just to slp. Yes, it sounds pretty insane but thats what i did. My HP cldn't stop ringing, as much as i wanna answer all the calls...i just didnt hv the will-power to pull myself up & answer them.

I'M turning into a POLAR BEAR right here in S'pore @ my office in TUAS. Even the col who said tt he didnt get a chance to wear his JAcket is putting it on now!! Definitely falling ill soon with the air-con blasting this way. *Shivers* My Cols & I are seriously thinking of investing in some woolen gloves if it d0esnt change anytiMe so0n. Roughly 1 more week to CNY & I need more clothes..geezzzZZ...

Love,
CarL

-= Let e pictures do e talking =-

I was lo0king through the photos taken on Christmas day & New Year Eve's Party..some of them are so Funny!! I had a great time laughing...not g0nna post th0se horrible one here, just a few for the eyesssssssss


I love my babessssssssssssssssssssss..........and my Smelly of c0z =P

-= Happy 2009 =-

Happy 2009 Every0ne!! May this year be a great & comforting 1 for all. Though there's e economy crisis but I'm sure all of us will pull through & be making tons of money in no time. I had a GREAT celebration with 15sugarc0ated h0ney babes @ the Furama Hotel. All the Laughter & fun..hw i luv them after 12yrs? & counting..till we're grey & hv trouble walking. It was fun but there was too much ALCOHOL!!! Po0r Elieen, Stacie & me hv to clean up the mess when every0ne left. We had a 'Colours' Party & the gift exchange session, unfortunately I was forfeited along with EW. The Tomato juice + CHIVAS t0tally sucks to the core.. I enjoyed myself & hope that 2009 will be a great 1 for all my honeyssss =)

New Year Resolutions for 2009

• Getting my license asap so i'm 1 step closer to my RX8
• Graduating & getting a good JOb
• Lossing Weight
• Learning Spanish & Thai
• To visit @ least 3 countries for holiday
• Getting a Stable Guy (LOLx)

-=My Birthday Eve=-

o0hh no, its e eve of my 23rd b'day..I'm g0nna be 0lder by one more yr. No wonder people esp. e female species always say tt when we reach 20, the yrs fly by faster than we know it, How True! I received my 1st b'day gift from some mysterious person. Its like a complimentary ticket to the S'poreFlyer. HmMm..it was just the ticket & the envelope with my name & add, Whoever it is..thanks =) I'm excited abt my mini b'day dinner with my dearest babes on Sun & w0nderful day with Dearest on Sat! Hope everything goes smo0thly.

I started P/t @ a dental clinic as a nurse on Monday after lecture. Its horrible to see th0se dirt & blo0d bt i'm tking it up to earn s0me extra $$ & experience the life of a nurse be4 i step into the corporate w0rld. in time to come. Its merely a 3hrs each time bt i'm already shagged after work. Time for bed, lo0king forward to the house-warming party later tis evening!!

Cheers,
Missy