-=aching all over=-

Its almost 7months nw, I'm aching all over but it'll be worth it when i see his cute cheeks in 3months time =) Love & I've decided on his name as well as some other stuff. I'm kinda anxious & scared.
LOve is embarking on another stage of life be4 our lil one arrives & i hope all goes well.
God Bless Us.

-=What a Coward=-

What is the world coming to? Why is it tt some1 who is so irresponsible & cowardly not have to pay for his sins!? If there's nothing tt can be done to him by law, God will definately do the job! Our world is becoming dangerous to live in, just when i though i am living in a safe country. Totally detest that bloody coward, yes I'm cursing him & so are many out there.
May our curse come true, SERIOUSLY!!
Please stop coming into our country if ur pple are cowards & U cannot do anything about it. Arghhhhh, reading about the incident really makes my blood boil.

U out there will get what U deserve!!

-=valentines??so what??=-

Life is so boring, its even worst when u've got things u wanna do but u cant do it now. CNY is coming but so what? I cant even feel the atmosphere anymore, i feel tt my life is getting monotonous, Valentine's day is coming so what? Its the this t0gether so what? no plans, no flowers nothing romantic, flowers only happen when a couple dates! Is that what's g0nna happen after a couple gets married?? Or am i expecting too much? I was very excited as it'll be the 1st v-day together but now i think its better i put that though off my mind.
I want to watch the t00th-fairy & other girlie shows but it will seem like a bore to the other party. I want to go out for supper & hv yummy deserts but it all seems like a dream now, I only stay @ hm to rot. Morning, evening & night, how can i be happy?
A joke or a song only happens when i asked for it, whats happening?? counting down, to june... hope things can last till then.

-=Happy Marriage=-

Thanks for all the well wishes everyone, its really heartfelt. This part of my life journey has just started, i pray that God will continue to lead me the way. I know that things will not be easy but I'll try, there're things tt I cannot mention here but i hope everyone will be happy.
I'll constantly remind myself & tell my self tt i am a happy woman..
I must be constantly happy. .
stay happy..
dont cry..
dont fear..
God will make a way for me.

Amen.

-=a Quick one=-

2009 is coming to an end, its ending for me on a happy note. Things hv been going on fine since e last quarrel, thank god. Christmas was simple but heart-warming, picnic & a late night movie with love. Counting d0wn 1 m0re month to the wedding, there're still things not comfirm yet but everything is going on course. The new drive is nice, i am glad i settled for it rather than the RX8. Hopefully everything goes well for everyone in 2010, btw thanks darren for ur comments =) hws aussie treating u? haha come bk soon.

-=A last w0rd be4 i close my world to you 4ever=-

Marriage what does it symbolise to one? Living together is difficult, how i envy others when i see them so loving. This is my last cry out to him before i ignore this marriage forever. Everyone has their bad points, I'm changing my bad points slowly but steady can you see & feel it in your heart? As a woman, I do have certain things tt i'm extremely sensative about & you know it. Why do you always have to speak to me in such a rude manner? Do you see me doing that to you anymore? Let's respect each other if you want this marriage to work, i'm ur life partner not your ememy. Don't you see my siding you always? What issit that you want from me now? Do you want me to share my life with you or would you rather I keep all my insecurities & unhappiness to myself?? Tears flow & my heartaches everytime you raise your voice @ me when i just ask simple questions to clear my doubts. Are you still willing to share my unhappiness & not just my joy with me? Am i asking for to much just for us to speak nicely to each other? Worklife is tough but I'm most willing to join hands to take away part of our finanical burdens, don't show me a black face or throw your temper @ me after work. I'm human too, i hope you'll have more patience for me because going through what i'm going through now is not easy. If things are so difficult for you maybe separation will do us some goodness. Don't make me hate you or loss my faith in you just months into our marriage, our happy times together is fading just like ur patience for me n my faith in you,pls do something before its too late. I still love you as of now, please dont take me for granted anymore.

torned.

-=Low point in life shows th0se wh0 are worthy=-

Feeling all alone & upset now,e one i thought i cld trust wasn't there. Screaming n hurling insults tt I felt tt everything in life was easy. WOW, i cldnt believe my ears...I'm more em0 now due to certain reasons & i suddenly felt alone. In this world there's no1 to fend 4 u except urself even though u might b in ur weakess. A holiday tt isnt wat it turned out to be & a marriage tt isnt e way it shld be.

I've lost the touch tt i used to get from my love. It seems tt e love is gone or lost somewhere, like i said the most wonder thing in life cannot b seem it must be felt in e heart. Having all e money in e world or drivng a very posh car doesnt make one happy, its the happiness tt one gets from the other. I used to think tt if i m ever in need or trouble he'll always be there but i was proven wrong, imagine having to ask to be more cared for @ my weakess. Worthless begger it seems, hw i miss my mum now & she wld be here to wipe my tears away frm me. She'll not scream & hurl @ me in e state i am in currently.

Have 4gotten Why i g0t married in e 1st place, where is e love? But since e fact is tt i am married, i shall bear with it for this life n be that worthless person. I hope my fake smiles can last for this whole marriage, life is meaningless now & there's definately nothing to look forward to. I'll learn to take the money & fake the smiles, its only here that i can show my true feelings now & maybe to my true friend.

Christmas will be a sad one from now onwards. MY Life, its e end. Regretting is too late now. hope god takes me away soon.

-=Seoul in 2 m0re days=-

Its freezing cold in tokyo and I'll be heading to Seoul in 2 more days. MuM says tt e temp is -4degrees!!Arghhh, i'm having a cold feet thinking of it alrdy but its g0nna be a white christmas there!! So cool, but love is not able to join in. Hopefully, it'll really be like a shopping heaven there..i need to get more accessories for my wedding and mask to keep my looking radiant hehe.
Hopefully, love will miss me tons when I'm in Seoul shopping =) I'll be much happier after this Shopping spree trip i guess, i've not been able to get anything tt i like here in Tokyo & its damn irritaing, i wanna go shopping & end up with shopping bags!!
Looking 4ward to the meet ups withs uni,pri,poly and sec sch friends in Dec...christmas spirit gets all of us t0gether,hw i love it!! I wonder what i'm g0nna get for my christmas present, its seems tt there's n0thing in my list now except for the arrival of the new car =) i want more holidays. I want to go to new caledonia!!

-=Back in Japan=-

Back in Japan for the last time this yr or probably the 2nd last time alrdy. Too much of anything is not very good, thinking of having Ramen now turns me a lil off haha..even when i was bk @ SG for my exams i kept far far away frm any Jap related f0od!!!

This will be probably be 1 of e most fulfilling trips as i'll be travelling to Hokkiad0, Osaka, kobe..etc and Seoul with my sec sch friends as well. I'm kinda of excited abt it alrdy, love n my lil trip will start early tml. It'll be said tt i'm too proud if i say i'm say tt I'm sick of taking planes, but its really kinda tiring (o.O) Hopefully its not too c0lddddddd n freezing in Hokkiadooo *fingers crossed*

After all the holiday it'll be a busy busy period for me, we've decided to hold our wedding dinner in Jan. Heheheehe....to be continued.

-=Sickening Sick=-

Tskk tskk, I've have been stuck @ hm since Sunday evening when I got bk from Tokyo. I'm d0wn with Stomach Ulcer & its horrible!! I kept me awake @ night due 2 e pain, I've only been feeding on plain porridge till thurs. Dear God pls let me recover s0 tt I can concentrate on my 1st paper nx week.
I've been left at hm with my silky,money everyday. Even when I need to get something @ plaza I can't mk it there.arghhhh...Its due to my incorrect eating style & e things i've eaten in e past few days. I'll promise to eat healthy & on time from now onwards. It really hurts, oUch! whats worst is tt love is not even here to tk care of me, WTH it sucks!

-=RIP Dearest Olympus=-

Haven't blogged for awhile & I'm g0ing t0 mk this a quick one..RIP my dearest Olympus!! Its dead due to my clumsiness yesterday @ Mt Fuji =( Fell to its death while I hurried Mr Teo t0 tk a photo of me with some signb0ard be4 we b0ard e tour bus. Tskk tskkk..Gone with the old & in comes e new haha. I want a new camera & a very go0d one to take d0wn all e w0nderful pictures everywhere i g0 with anyone!! Hopefully Mr Teo gets my hint of a very go0d camera =) Price shouldnt be much of a issue for great pics taken day & night right?hehe. The Olympus was alright but its night sh0ts really sucks & f0r pple wh0 luv travelling getting a tripod is DAMN NECESSARY!! In places like Japan here are idiot around too, wanting to spoil ur happiness by rejecting request to help with photographing!!! Shall not go more into that. 

Cheers

 

-=Phobia 2=-

It was a mad rush while love was bk in SG to do our solemnization. There seems to be so many things to do & so little time, we were as busy as beesss. But we managed to catch Phobia2 on 1 of e nights, i feel that its not a scary as i wld like it..too graphical. If U want a good laugh, just cinemas today =)

OOhhhyaaa..i finally passed my driving test, imagine e super duper happy look on my face when e test told me i paSsed!! I've to thank Love for giving me support & encouragement all these while. It feels great to be able to drive when u know there's a car underneath e carpark waiting for you. Lastly, i just want to clear my last sem without any hurdles.

Amen.

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-=2 More projs to Grad=-

Last sem of Uni, 2 more sems to graduation i hope. Time really flies..its gonna be the end of my sch life, I'm stepping into another phrase of life. There's a mixture of feelings both good & bad. I think i'll miss my friends alot..the gossips, the last night of projs..dont we wish sometimes time will slow d0wn a little. My sec days were the best days of my life, i dream of those times in my slp very often. Recently, I've been pretty stressed out..it seems like there's so much happening & I can't cope with it. There's no1 here when i need a crying shoulder, pple around just adds to my stress level. I hate it!
I don't want to start working immediately after graduating, i want to tk a break & go for a holiday to somewhere i like..i want to go to brazil, eygpt, new Calendonia,vietnam etc..i want to enjoy life alil before working. I dont want pple to rule my life for me or give unnecessary comments, no matter how close u're to me. Its my life so go step on ur own life instead.

-=Freaky Weather=-

I'm feeling so tired now @ 4plus in e morning but i can't get to slp!! I turned off e air-con as it was freezing but as soon as it was off, my room turned into an 0ven!! Gosh, it was raining cats & Dogs yest and t0day is terribly H0T! If it g0es on like this, i'll definately turn into a walking z0mbie. Hopefully love ain't facing e same prob as me here in SG, but i know i'm definately g0nna get a sc0lding when he sees this post & e timing tis was p0sted haha. I miss Love!
Down with e finance test & e sales Com report, 2m0re reports & 4final exams to graduation. The finance test was easy thanks to e practise we went through, distinction shldn't be a prob =] But if this bad weather continues, how am i going to be in e right state of mind to do my revision?? tskkk tskkk.
Been going through many forums & reviews to see if e mobile love & i are g0nna get is good, now i'm in a real dilemma. Reviews gave the SonyEricsson X1 8.7/10 but the reviews were pretty bad, the HTC HD is too expensive!! & the classmates says tt LG phones ain't e best to choose from. ARGHHHHhhhh, howhow?? maybe i shld just get another E71? its the editors as well as the readers' choice! Or maybe wait for the E72 to be out? Well, any phone is better than the lousy one i'm using n0w, it has no bluetooth and my friends are all laughing their heads off cozzzzzzzz i was such a hp geek!
yawns. finally i'm sleepy enough to ignore e freaky weather.
Back to bed.

BLOGGER SUCKS!!! PHOTOS CANNOT BE UPLOADED

-=Finished=-

I have made up my mind.

-=Busy as a Bee=-

OMG, its nearly 5pm & I just started my reports. I've got so much things to be done but so much trouble on hands. I can't believe how irresponsible & nonsupporting some pple can be when i already have so much to be done. It really sh0ws h0w much we can count on them in times of need. I guess my blog is turning into a place where I pour my unhappiness to instead of happiness since I can't feel any happiness now.
Since this is the way I'm treated, I shall concentrate on my work instead. I dont have so much time and effort to waste on insignificant matters currently. I'm losing faith as days go by, this is not changing. I'm not going to waste my life!

-=Changed Lifestyle for n0thing=-

Just a lil post before bed. My lil silky terrier (Money) went to the vet on thurs & it was found tt he has ear infection as I was careless on my part on cleaning him. I didnt know tt I've to clean his ears. He's getting really n0tti, chewing on stuff around e hm & tt includes my feet!! Maybe my feet looks like tasty treat to him, haha.

Really upset with things. I feel tt I've change my lifesyle for n0thing or rather I'm not being appericated. I shall start my exercise routine again & go out with my pals more often instead of staying hm. Its so not me..why am i doing all these? I can no longer convince myself. In this prime time of my life, I shld go out & enjoy myself. I will not waste my life away anymore. I've not being joining the late night chill out sessions & much activities. Time to get a hold on my boring life. So sleepy, i'm off to bed..early lecture tml.

Cheers

-=Happy Belated 44th B'day S'pore=-

Happy Belated b'day S'pore, 44yrs of independence. What a long way we've come & there's more to go!! I didn't get to watch the national day parade live but it alright,I wonder why would they let Mark lee join the parade with his ah-beng english. YUCKS!!

Back in S'pore after being sun-burnt @ the Onjuku beach(the famous camel beach in Chiba prefecture in Jap) I've never ever been to a beach that is soooooo freaking hot!! The sand has iron deposits & it was burning my feet. Gosh! But it was a gd experience, i was the camels =) Yet to d/l photos onto lappy as there were too many things to be done. I'll just post a photo of me & love while we were @ the hot spring the last time. I missed love even more now, wish that he's zzz right beside me now. I pray tt the earthquakes in Tokyo will end & keep love safe from harm.

I promised to get to bed soon. HOpefully i'll be able to d/l all the photos & post some of them up in the nx post.

Just a p0st to remind tt i'm 24

Happy B'day to myself belated. Birthdays..they'r n0thing special but just a reminder tt we're getting older. o0h ya,i g0t a puppy for my b'day, a silky terrier..the only b'day present i've this yr. His name is money & he's really naughty & adorable.
Life isnt as planned, mine fared much worst.
Never felt so bad before in my entire life.
Never been cursed so much & treated this way.
Its just awhile more, violence doesnt solve problrm.
Vagularities. They'll all be far far away from me.
I'll be good for now, let time fly.